We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Three Days of the Candor

from Direct & Discreet EP by Conductors

/

lyrics

I am your burden now

I have revealed the wrong things
both before and now.
They never were daring things,
Not unsettling or strong,
Only embarrassing - un-refined, naïve.
I do regret my naked frailty.
You’ve seen my meager hand or will see:
Low numbered hearts and shame,
And still we must remain in the game,
Without any defense against terrible pity.

Then worse still are those things un-said, failed to say
Chances die so fast then grief lasts
Missed gifts remain, remind in memory.
Perfections seen too late
Reveal me to be less than I think.

I do get lucky sometimes
When my words mean more than I meant.
But I don’t admit it.

I am your burden now.
I don’t know any way to carry myself.
I thought I knew.
It wasn’t true.

My humbling should be crippling.
But it hasn’t stopped me yet,
I still call it ‘mine’
And still I keep writing this, singing at your feet.
I don’t admit defeat

I am your burden now.
I don’t think you can let me down.
Some stand firm under weight,
For others the back just breaks.

Silence is an option
I know that very well.
So this means I still have some vanity.
This song was supposed to be pure humility,
But now it’s only easy to forget.

I am your burden now.
I’m strapped to your back.
I hope we don’t collapse.
But I can’t even hear you gasp.

Can we be free of pride
and remain human and alive?
I’m afraid it’s a knot that can’t be untied.
But how come it feels like we all agree
The first and last sin is vanity?
And why do we want to be so dignified?

I used to be sure that living for art,
Devoted enough to starve,
Was the only nobility.
Now I see that it might as well be more vanity.

All of the people on the stage
Have the ambitions of a little child-
It’s our weakness, it’s our shame.
I don’t believe them when they say they need to write or sing.

Maybe fantasy is good enough for me,
And I can get by on dreaming every night
But I don’t want to find out.

I think I’d be fine without those
Beautiful women’s singing voices igniting my desire
(And I don’t want to be just another silly admirer
Which makes me only another silly admirer)
But it doesn’t feel like they’re my burden
It seems they hold themselves
And all our ties are so tenuous.
O! Damn this ever-present tenuousness!


So, I’ll let you carry me,
O what am I saying, it’s not up to me
Thank you for carrying me.
It’s a debt that can’t be repaid.
There’s lots of those today.

You give me gifts
I don’t know what to do
How do you show true gratitude?
I’m really asking you!
Thank You!
You’re giving something great.
You are a gift.
Thank you.

credits

from Direct & Discreet EP, released December 31, 2012

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Conductors image

Conductors Chicago, Illinois

"Mona tried to tell me
To stay away from the train line
She said that all the railroad men
Just drink up your blood like wine
An’ I said, 'Oh, I didn’t know that
But then again, there’s only one I’ve met
An’ he just smoked my eyelids
An’ punched my cigarette' " ... more

contact / help

Contact Conductors

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this track or account

Conductors recommends:

If you like Conductors, you may also like:

Bandcamp Daily  your guide to the world of Bandcamp

On Bandcamp Radio

Featuring interviews with LA music scene pillar Kamasi Washington, and new London-based duo Mrcy.

listen now